Charming

Iemand die ik al jaren niet meer gezien had zei me deze week als antwoord op te horen dat ik Aspergers heb:

"Ik hoop dat het nu wat makkelijker voor je is, maar je charmante persoonlijkheid zul je altijd wel blijven behouden"

Is altijd fijn zo iets te horen over jezelf.


En nog fijner als je te horen krijgt dat mensen je toch wel charmant vinden.


Allee, das dan Charmant, Intelligent, Grappig, Lief en Soft on the eyes.




Cool shit

Energy

This songtext from Channel Zero describes how I feel with nearly every "normal" person I've ever come across.

Normal people aren't normal, they are vampires with motives beyond pleasure or feeding, some of them are just plain evil.

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yeeeeaaaaaaah!!!!!!
You, you once broke my belief
And I know, I was so damn naïve
Remember the days you acted so real
The things you said were not a big deal
You could call me whenever you wanted
I was yours, a toy, always ready
Get away, don't wanna see
Don't try to manipulate
Makes me wonder
Whenever you're hanging round
I die, die in front of your feet
And I've tried to exist on your heat
Sucking me dry for my energy
Sucking me dry with your energy
Sucking me dry for the energy
Get away, stay away from me
Get away, don't come oh so close to me
And I know you'll be back
So tell, tell me what do you need
Allright, take my body to feed
Sucking me dry for my energy
Sucking me dry with your energy
Sucking me dry for your energy
Sucking me dry for more energy
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Don't worry though, there is no black hole strong enough to deplete my energy anymore.
And more importantly, I'm very aware people have motives beyond what they express.
I mostly choose to ignore it, as long as it does not have an overly annoying impact on me.
Funny thing is, people think I'm ignorant and unaware of their games :p Idiots.


As Albert Camus said so beautifully:
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Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal.
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My take on that. Its energy taken, not expended.


I am normal in my own right, I'm just way more honest, determined, steadfast, unwavering, tolerant and most importantly, unconditional, in how I feel, I know people play games, I choose not to join in.

But because I love, am indifferent or hate, abuse that and your finished for good.

Weird thing about that though, even when I come to hate someone, they can still call on me in their time of greatest need.

Happy Birthday me!